neurotranscendence

…life on the synaptic firing range

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Bent but unbroken Southern California native seeks understanding, companionship, and resonance along and off the beaten path. Teresa plays well with others and makes every effort to perform to her potential. Usually. *processed in a facility that processes nuts and nut products

Friday, December 22, 2006

walk, goddammit!

Hello?

Does anyone bother to check this site anymore for updates? Am I whistling in the dark? Oh, wait, I'm supposed to be writing for myself, so it matters not whether anyone reads it. (Total, complete bullshit. Attention is oxygen.)

Will you please excuse Scout's absence if she tells you she's been in traction? Only for 20 minutes per week, but still, you know, she's shameless—anything to win back your love.

When last we talked my right leg had gone all pouty on me, acting out in response to my rude presumption that it would interminably take up the slack of its slower companion. (It hates being taken for granted—who knew?) The pain was such that I had taken to sleeping in my zero-gravity chair to displace stress from the pressure points.

Nothing has changed, except that I've gained a physical therapist. Her name is Eriny.

Eriny has theories about the origin of said pain. Of sciatica, bursitis of the hip, and piriformis syndrome, which bundles sciatica and bursitis into one convenient package, she's pretty sure it's the latter—which she notes is often caused by gait disorders, the fancy term for my drunken-sailor walk. At any rate, she needed to treat it from a couple of different angles to be certain.

I couldn't have been more delighted that first day I saw her—the morning of my 39th birthday—to hear her say the words “deep-tissue massage.” Free spa treatment! Happy birthday, me!

I knew what a deep-tissue massage felt like; I had, after all, paid $135 for one at the Mandalay Bay spa, more properly called “Spa Mandalay Bay,” in Las Vegas. And to think I would be getting one now for only a $15 copay! Oh, sure, Kaiser Permanente's Occupational and Physical Therapy Unit, perhaps more properly called “Unit OPT Kaiser Permanente,” lacks some of the fancy trappings of Spa Mandalay Bay: the preliminary relaxation session in the eucalyptus steam room, the ploofy robe, your choice of stink-pretty essential oils, indirect lighting faded just-so, soft plinky-plonky music, the clog-shod massage therapist seductively whispering, “How's that pressure for you?” But listen, for the $120 difference, I'll accept Kaiser's sheet-draped exam table in a beige room under fluorescent assault. And if Eriny doesn't exactly whisper in my ear, neither does she shout at me.

As it turns out, Spa Mandalay Bay's “deep-tissue massage” was just so much bullshit. Though it featured a tap more pressure than the Swedish massage to which I had treated myself during a previous trip to Vegas, overall it was a perfectly pleasant experience—as I suppose any spa treatment ought to be. Eriny's $15 job, on the other hand, amounted to outright abuse. Ho yeah, there were tears. I only just managed to keep from leaping off the table and running limping away.

So I was feeling a little cringy when I went back to see her for my next appointment. But once we agreed that there had been only slight, not profound, improvement, she said she wanted to try pelvic traction. It sounded intriguing, as do many medieval tortures, but mostly I was just pleased to duck out of my scheduled “massage.”

Eriny led me to a treatment room outfitted with an execution gurney. She harnessed my midsection in an institutional corset before I got horizontal, and once I was on the gurney she pulled my arms through another harness and buckled it around my chest, then she went about cinching all the straps until I was immobilized to her satisfaction.

Are you turned on? No, I wasn't either. There are few venues less sexy than a medical treatment room, especially when your bondage top is wearing a medallion with a full-color rendering of an agonized Jesus bleeding under his crown of thorns. Not. Sexy.

After 20 minutes of having my spine pulled like taffy by a machine exerting between 30 and 70 pounds of pressure in alternating 30-second intervals, a surprisingly not unpleasant experience, I was released from my bonds and given these parting words: “This is a long-term treatment, so don't expect any miracles overnight.”

Friend S. was throwing herself a 40th-birthday party the following day and had rented a roller rink. I had told her that I was having physical therapy the day before in hopes of being able to skate. I was kidding, of course. Anyone who's witnessed my walk of late, a highly adaptive drunken lurch, my legs only grudgingly responding to my brain's commands, would laugh at a mental image of me skating. But the following morning I felt less calcified than I have in months, and I remained loose the whole day.

Readers, I skated.

I didn't skate well, mind you, but that was much more a result of 20 years having passed since I last set wheeled-foot in a rink than any physical limitations. And just as S. promised, I felt like a teenager again, albeit with less self-consciousness. It was kind of a miracle—both the skating and the not caring whether anyone was watching or laughing at me.

I stiffened up about 36 hours later, but it was great while it lasted, and I figured, hey, maybe I could count on 48 hours of happy body—which would be two days more per week than I could hope for before—every time I had my spine yanked. And Eriny said it would only get better with further treatment! It will come as no surprise that I priced in-home pelvic traction kits through online medical suppliers. Because, you know, if 20 minutes of traction results in 48 hours of mobility, imagine what an hour would do…or a whole day!

As it turns out, there is no magic bullet (except the kind they put in sex toys to make them vibrate—or so I've heard). I've had four more traction sessions since, with none having yielded the 48-hour miracle of the first. In fact, with the second treatment I felt significant pain at my immobilization points for several days afterward. And this morning, my fourth treatment, I walked in all zippity-do-dah and walked out stiff.

Still, I remain hopeful, and I have a little theory of my own. You see, Eriny hasn't worn her bleeding Jesus medallion since that first treatment, and Jesus was way into healing the lame—even if neither he nor his biographers much cottoned to people-first language. And even Peter, just about the coolest apostle ever, got into the miracle racket, pointing at a random beggar and commanding, “In the name of Jesus Christ the Nazarene—walk!” And the man obediently leapt to his feet and danced like a sideshow freak at a Christian circus. The Bible notes that this particular convert had been lame since birth, working his alms racket at that same location for 35 years, but hey, beggars can't be choosers. And if the ungrateful bastard wants to complain about his lot, may he meet the Philistine who's walked about her whole life in terribly uncomfortable strappy heels from Payless.

My point is that Eriny could wear the goddamn medallion again. I'd make a handsome vessel for a modern Christian miracle, and the Good News would not be lost on me. Really.

In the meantime, Happy Birthday, Jesus, you studmuffin. You don't look a day over 33!

(God, I hope that didn't seem overly solicitous. I'm being totally sincere.)

11 Comments:

Blogger KMae said...

Oh Scout, I am SO SORRY to read your leg/body troubles. DAMN. On the other hand I am SO GLAD you're back. Yes, I HAD about given up on you & felt peevish that you are such a great writer & you were withholding your talent from us all. I hope you are not in pain anymore. You poor baby.

9:05 PM  
Blogger sporksforall said...

Eriny (who you claim pronounces her name eyereenee, but should pronounce it arunee given how it's spelled) must be a powerful woman. I get sore after a standard Swedish massage and have been called a "pain wimp" but my honey (that's you!). If arunee hurt you, she'd make me cry for days.

You can't keep the at-home traction thing in the living room, ok?

11:08 PM  
Anonymous Hop said...

Scout, I'm hurt. I check your site, like, every day! Wondering, hoping, worrying, mainly just being patient. I'm a bit overt about it because I know you are actually having a life, whereas I'm kind of stewing right now in a big pot of my own mess. So, how could I expect, or demand, you fill in my sad hours? No, that's not fair. I can wait. Just so you know I'm here. I'm reading Oliver Sacks' The Anthropologist on Mars - about an autistic woman (she's famous now as a consultant to slaughterhouses because she feels most emotionally close to cattle and helps design humane killing methods - well, I know, humane... that's for another time). I can sort of relate to her autistic symptoms - the feelings of being clueless in human relationships. So, if you need attention, you have to ask because I can be pretty much tone-deaf in that area. (I'm aware I'm being too serious.)

But, how good to hear about your treatment. Just like in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, when they stretch Mike TeeVee on the taffy puller. Did you ever try yoga? (I guess that's a stupid question. Who has not tried yoga.) It's really good for getting rid of that "calcified" feeling. Of course, ask Eriny first.

So glad to read yet another interesting blog. I'm happy to hear you are taking care of yourself. What an inspiration you are! Skating!!! Wow! Go free!!

Well, the Bible was not written to be taken literally no matter what anybody says. Jesus was a feminist and a healer, but I don't think when he says "walk" or "see" that he meant it literally, but anyway, yes, that's for another time too. I'm being too serious again.

Yeah, happy birthday Jesus. I always thought if Jesus came back he'd be like Studs Terkel or James Baldwin.

12:07 PM  
Anonymous Rhea said...

Hi, I just discovered your blog. So I guess you're not whistling in the dark!

6:42 PM  
Blogger Slangred said...

Personally, I recommend pelvic traction followed a day or so later by SKATING! That seems to be the magic bullet! Right?! ? !

10:10 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have come by many times since November 9th (greetings, madam president) when I first visited, so you're maybe whistling in the dark, but others are lurking. LOL Sorry to hear about the pain and problems. I'm disabled myself by pain so I can comiserate for sure.

Hope you found a way to enjoy family/friends whether the holidays are your thing or not.

8:13 PM  
Anonymous funchilde said...

Scout! Glad you are up and around (??) Still checking in on ya virtually and hoping you and yours are well. Take care of yourself and Happy Chrimahanakwanza

10:36 AM  
Blogger sari said...

shame on you for assuming that no one cares... i have checked at *least* every other day for an update, and FINALLY! i nearly peed my pants when i saw something other than 'greetings, madam president' at the top... thank you so much for the update!

you are loved....and as a massage therapist, i'm sorry that you had to endure the REAL deep tissue massage...i wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy!

11:38 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Good to see you back. So sorry for your pain. Hope you do find a sustaining remedy.

7:23 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I, too, am glad you are back.

I am also glad about your treatment. ANY pain relief, however temporary, is better than constan pain.

Um... if Jesus iconography figures into your treatment... I'd be happy to make something for you... I do that sort of thing.

5:27 AM  
Blogger Sarah said...

Hmm..I got to the part about pelvic traction and couldn't seem to focus on the rest of your post. :0)

9:36 AM  

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